'tenderest touch leaves the darkest of marks..'
take a long deep breath.
hold it.
crunch in a croner.
keep holding it.
wait till ur face turns red.
now think hard of THE solution to everything.
don't let go of ur breath before really thinking it over.
now raise ur head up.
let go.
stand up.
walk towards the phone..


T . says (10:20 PM)
ever whispered in  a snake's ear?
mj says (10:22 PM)
T . says (10:23 PM)
sometimes i just want to run away from everything and everyone
just stay alone for a while
T . says (10:24 PM)
then go back and carry on everything as it was
T . says (10:24 PM)
just like taking your sweaty cloth off then wearing them back again..


is it why in your tears,
i could smell the taste of fear
it was all around
all my laughs,
all my wings, 
they were graved inside your ring 
you were all mine..


i daydream about things that would make you want sin.

it's a beautiful messed up world..



still throwing things off
i listen to the sounds they make
on their way down
i follow with my eyes 'til they crash
imagine what my body would sound like
slamming against those rocks

and when it lands
will my eyes
be closed or open?
knew how to use your panda eyes
but they wont subdue me any more
i ve found the tears were only lies
not gonna feel guilty no more
the glitter glued on the heart turned to be flies
that hoverred and stuck on all the blood i had to poor
so let the rain come out from your heart for once
it may give you a glance of what i feel
what you've done what you've made.
the monster I've become,
i'll tame it back but not to the same little birdy u met
to an eagle a free soul that will haunt you till that wretched day
i m not gonna hate you
i just want to wave my hand
i see you 
deep in hell 
from my cloud roaming up high
it will be so silent when you'll die.